4.29.13 Is This It?

Cup 790 xxx
photos by gluttonforlife
There's a game I play sometimes: I look at my life as it is in this moment, think of everything I possess right now, and ask myself if I would be happy if nothing ever changed. I won't deny that sometimes this leads to sadness bordering on desperation. What if I don't finish my novel? Never build that house on the lake? Fail to see Burma? Is this it?  Time and money often factor into this mental equation. Self-doubt can creep in. On those days, I question if I have fulfilled my potential, tried hard enough, risked enough. But I am not what I own, nor even what I do, and if I start to define myself by those measures, there is no satisfaction guaranteed.
Citrus 790 xxx
bloody good
There is a concept in yoga called asmita; it refers to the "false-identification" that happens when we mistake the mind, body or senses for the true self. All of these things are changeable, so there is no point in becoming too attached to any of them. Your perfect home might burn down. Your gorgeous skin will wrinkle. Your business might fold. Worry not, for none of these are you.

The only true constant is the part of you known as purusa, the "seer," which experiences the world through the lens of the mind. This is your core, the you of you. The more connected you are to this unchanging inner self, the less you will look for happiness outside yourself, in other people or things. It feels amazingly good to be happy just being you.
Drink 790 xxx
salt of the earth
In my clearest moments, I know that I have everything I want. It's all right here inside me. And the same is true for you.

Rosy Outlook

serves 1
  • — 2 ounces tequila
  • — 2 ounces blood orange juice
  • — 1/2 ounce lime juice
  • — 3/4 ounce simple syrup or honey syrup
  • cumin salt (equal parts toasted cumin seeds and sea salt, blitzed in a spice grinder)

Spread about 1/4 cup of cumin salt on a small plate.

Swipe the rim of a rocks glass with a piece of lime, then dunk rim into cumin salt. Fill glass with ice and set aside.

Combine remaining ingredients in a cocktail shaker and shake well.

Pour over ice and enjoy.

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Love the post. Printed the recipe.
Lisa on April 29, 2013 at 1:44 pm —
The cumin salt is also great in guacamole and with lamb.
laura on April 29, 2013 at 2:18 pm —
I'm forwarding this link to a friend who just said she is in a funk. Lovely post.
Peggy on April 29, 2013 at 2:15 pm —
Thanks, Peggy! I wrote it because I'm in a bit of a funk myself. It helped.
laura on April 29, 2013 at 2:18 pm —
Laura, you know just what to say and when to say it. Yesterday, I caught myself in a familiar rut of dwelling on comparisons of achievement. Woke up early today on the tail end of a spring downpour, did some yoga, sat down with a cup of coffee and found this post. Thank you for being part of a healing morning! I'm going to hold this notion of purusa in mind today...
Prairie on April 29, 2013 at 6:56 pm —
Welcome to the club, Prairie!
laura on April 29, 2013 at 7:00 pm —
oh the mind, what a trickster, like coyote. hard turning those tapes off, so I just listen and laugh and read the Borowitz Report because it's all nonsense anyway!
Bill on April 29, 2013 at 7:27 pm —
Merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily, life is but a dream...
laura on April 29, 2013 at 7:30 pm —
I used to play a very similar game with myself, but due to shifting priorities after going through back-to-back personal + family crises in recent years (and thankfully emerging FINE), I now play a different self-questioning game: Am I able to deepen/open my capacity to feel the purusa-Self right NOW? Thank you so much for this post... a wonderfully synchronistic reminder of what I most truly value in life... LIFE itself. And as if that wasn't enough, you throw in a tantalizing cocktail recipe! Well, what else should one expect, from a true glutton for LIFE? 'Glutton' being defined as "a person with a remarkably great desire or capacity for something." Perfect. (BTW, my favorite quotation: "What we are looking for is what is looking." --St. Francis of Assisi)
monica on April 29, 2013 at 8:05 pm —
Thanks for sharing, Monica, for your illuminating words and that great quote!
laura on April 29, 2013 at 8:18 pm —
Dearest, This post is as luscious as you are. And your conviction mirrors mine. Your first photo reminds me of a game I played with myself when my kids were napping. Often one would be tucked under my arm and my hand would be tossed up, above my head. If the light was just right, in the diamonds (small chips) in my wedding ring, I could see reflected, on that tiny surface, the window behind my head, the branches of the oak out my window and even a bird if I was lucky, This tiny peep of reflection often turned me to reason that life is such a small glimmer of light and everything is reflected in everything else. The sweetness of the present, a nap with a hot headed kid next to me, oak branches and light in my ring, all led me to feel a trust that my worries and burdens were never so great and they were ultimately bearable, because if this little chip of stone could reflect so perfectly the beauty of this tree, then I too, so much larger and diverse, could also reflect some beauty. Either that, or I'd make a great spy. xoxoox S
Suzi Banks Baum on April 29, 2013 at 8:58 pm —
Absolutely love that, SBB! Hilarious and profound.
laura on April 29, 2013 at 9:04 pm —
I'm reading this at the exact moment in my life that I need to remember it. Thanks.
The Wimpy Vegetarian on May 1, 2013 at 12:02 am —
Hey Laura, surfing thru your website for cooking inspiration when I stumbled upon these very wise words. They warmed my heart and my spirit. Always looking for the right words, thoughts to justify my life, my work, who I am, why am I here. . . And there, behold, you put it all together- right here for everyone to experience and ponder. Thanks for your brilliance my friend. D.
Donna Eble on May 26, 2013 at 6:01 pm —
Glad to know it resonates with you, D. xo
laura on May 27, 2013 at 8:04 am —